“I can’t think about that now. If I do, I’ll go crazy. I’ll think about it tomorrow.” –Scarlett O’Hara in my favorite movie “Gone With the Wind”

I just signed the loan papers to continue Mina’s chemotherapy. Sure, it’s not as much debt as my former student loans but it’s an awful lot. A scary lot. It is, however, enough to get her through the remaining eight chemotherapy treatments in the protocol.

After that, I’m not sure what will happen to us. If Mina’s not in remission at the end of the protocol then I’ll go back to her regular vets and let them guide me through whatever comes. Remission rates are typically listed on various canine lymphoma Web sites at 70-84 percent of dogs treated with remissions lasting 6-9 months, sometimes longer.

That’s all I want. I want Mina to feel good and enjoy her life for 6-9 months or longer before the cancer comes to claim her. Remission is described as the absence of cancer and I’m not sure when her cancer vets will declare that for her. I thought, as you’ll recall from an earlier post, that we were close at one point but then she stopped eating well and Team Grim Reaper was ready to call it quits. Her last exam and tests had good results but still not good enough.

So on we go for another nine weeks. In the meantime, Mina is eating well and tolerating all the new supplements and she seems perky. I love her so much.